I have a guest on my blog today, my friend Chris from The Mom Café. She is one of my very favorite bloggers EVER and I am honored to have her here sharing No Going Back.
Chris and I met in blogosphere. I started noticing comments from her on my blog on a regular basis. I’m not sure how she found me but I decided to return the favor and mosey on over to The Mom Café and take a look around. I loved what I found and have been an avid fan ever since. She is not only a gifted writer, she is tons of fun and a kindred spirit. I hope to meet her in person one day. Oooh, I can put that on my 60 x 60 list!
Here’s her post. Enjoy!
No Going Back…
“I wish I could have let go of my hang ups sooner, had I known what was ahead…”
She sighed with tears welling up in her eyes.
The moment lingered, as it’s profoundness ached through the air.
I looked into her eyes, reaching beyond their brightness and below the tears. My heart was brought to her place of despair and her desperate plea. I join her in this march toward the inevitable… a well-worn path that will only crumble more. Her husband ailing from a disease that strips him of integrity and functioning… as the monster pulls layer upon layer off of his manhood, his living, his dreams. She too wrestles this debilitating journey into the unknown and the unthinkable… twisted into this fate she did not choose or fathom.
She’s facing the relentless fight and agonizing downfall of this plight, realizing what she lost in days gone by, years trudged through… leaving her with gaping holes of regret.
My heart takes on her view.
And I am struck by the magnitude of her strength. The tenacity of her endurance. Unable to fully grasp her pain, but nonetheless- I am in it.
I wish I could turn back time…
I wish I could change her path.
I wish I could have the power to heal her husband and restore her soul. I wish I could change the vernacular of her existence and restore her dreams.
Oh, how I wish.
But I can’t.
Her path was set before her. Designed by her loving God. He has marked her days with his Loving Hand, and knows full well that it is good. He reigns over Heaven and earth and makes good of all things for those who love Him and are called according to His Purpose. His Power and strength do mighty miracles. He longs for her to trust in him and depend not on her understanding, but allow Him to direct her path. He offers comfort and peace that will guard her heart and her mind and carry her through her plight. She clings to this hope, as she sometimes loses her grip and slips down that terrible winding road of hopelessness.
Let us all take heed of her story, and hear God’s whisper to honor what we have in this moment. On this day. As we live our precious and precocious lives. May we learn from my beloved friend, that things change instantly… and our choices and priorities matter. Right now.
Who are we neglecting? What would we regret?
If we became bound and tossed down an unraveling road of tragic terrain, would we be content with the life we had lived? Or would there be gaping holes left to fill, lying empty alongside the road…
Find those empty places and fill them now.